Lonely

Ninja is away on a sleep-away camp. It certainly feels very different having one less kid in the house. So much quieter. A always complains about having a brother and wishes he were never born…
Me: So, how do you feel about having Mommy and Daddy all for you? 
A: Lonely
Me: Really? 
A: I miss Erik.
Me: 🤣🤣 
#lovehaterelationship #bestfriendsworstenemies 

let go

Couldn’t help myself wondering how he’s doing. Really hope that he’s having a good time. It’s been 12 hours since the “last breakfast” at Norm before seeing Ninja off at the pier for his first sleep-away camp. Trying to picture that he’s hopping from spots to spots in the Catalina Island on a tall ship learning about stars, navigation, marine biology…having an adventure of his life. 

He gave me and Papi a big hug before he went off. It was funny that A actually went ahead and gave him a long hug (he was somewhat embarrassed and surprised by it). 

It’s a little bit funny, this feeling inside of “let go”. I suppose it is one of the hardest things to do as parents. Sure that we will get to practice a lot of it from now on…but practice makes perfect? I am not so sure.

“Mommy, I miss Erik. I am worried about him. I cannot sleep.” A said. She’s usually pretty “stingy” about her affection towards her brother. So It’s nice to hear the true feelings from her. She definitely takes after me in this department.